In a funk this morning. Waking early sometime in the night. Very dark. Very Thirsty, probably mouth breathing. Then staggering to my bathroom for cold water.
Up about 5:30 a.m. due to Mochoa cat. Meow, meow , meow – Paw, paw, paw. Very effective…..for her. Bathroom water still on a run into my sink. How long…????????. $$$ to the water company. Damn!!!. Off with the water, dress and then to my computer. Eyes at half-staff, sleep impossible, maybe later if lucky.
BOB MIND PROBER RESULTS – RELATIONSHIPS
MR. R. F. PREFERS A RELIABLE, ACCEPTING COMPANION
“At a first meeting, Mr. R. F. may seem wary of becoming involved with others. He is likely to enter into a relationship only with someone who is willing to be a steady and kind partner.
It is best to meet him in a quiet, non-threatening situation. His natural tendency to move slowly is due to his secret fear of being rejected. If the relationship encounters rough waters, he’s likely to blame himself.”
To the work at hand. Now Marge’s Prober Results:
MARGE MIND PROBER RESULTS – RELATIONSHIPS
MRS. M. F.’S APPROACH TO RELATIONS MAY BE PUZZLING
“On a casual meeting, Mrs. M. F. may seem to be a likeable sort of person. If you become further involved with her, you might find that she hides a fair amount of angry feelings. She may seem to want a smooth satisfying relationship, but be pulled to do things to disrupt it.
You may wonder if someone took advantage of her in the past. she can be friendly and then turn suddenly to being annoyed or irritated. It may not be obvious as to why her feelings changed, with the exception that she is likely to attribute her occasional upset to others.”
Analysis and commentary:
A 30 year old DOS program. $5.95 including manual. Almost un-thinkable regarding accuracy. What a bargain. Better than hours with PhD Psychiatrists. Only one-way though. So what!!! A do-it-yourself project. Meaning, what meaning? Of course, the answer, next closely examining the textual content.
For myself, Mr. R. F., Bob to you of course. Wham, bang, nail on the head! First paragraph 100% true, admittedly true….. “Wary”, yes, also careful, alert, attentive, watchful, and observant. Guilty of the charge.
Moving on, ” a quiet non-threatening situation.” Better safe than sorry. Where? to a non-threatening location of course. Starbucks maybe? Perhaps, likely.
But then; Secret fear? Rejection? A dilemma of course. A secret, unknown and or unseen. Perhaps a secret unknown even to myself? Could be, perhaps, maybe so, at least a quandary, a perplexity, an uncertainty. Life itself.
Last sentence: Blaming myself? How often, with what probability? Perhaps the median, 50%. Just a possibility. The other 50% , the causation of the parting of ways? Logically, next then a detailed examination, of the parting. Good or bad? Hmmmm. Analysis, sometimes to my rescue, sometimes to my downfall. Here, me, asking for, looking for the sequence of events, assumptions, values, styles on each side of the failed relationship. Hopefully, a learning experience. Maybe not.
Now Marge: “may be puzzling.” Indeed – extremely accurate. My experience exactly. Experience of our marriage, though not dating. Curious, very curious. Puzzling even.
So condensed, so true to life, this Mind Prober analysis. Marge, a psychological bomb, hidden angry feelings, ready to explode at any moment, unexpected.
Marge, “someone took advantage of her in the past” yes. At least once, probably more often. Her secrets, her fears exactly.
Attributing upset to others, blaming them? Yes, frequently blaming Mr. R. F., me, Bob, moi, etc.
Seems obvious. Me, “preferring a reliable, accepting companion.” Marge’s approach, puzzling indeed. One moment, friendly, the next “being very annoyed or irritated,” blaming others, disruptive. Then the hidden bomb. BANG!!! BOOOM!!!……BIG surprise indeed.
So, ours often a troubled marital relationship. Not always, when good, very good, when bad, very bad. Polar extremities. Get through it? Yes. Meant for each other? Yes, ………..eventually.
I believe my past posts have become unnecessarily wordy and sometimes logically disconnected. I am trying a new style of writing, constrained writing, to correct this. A link to a site explaining this style follows: The train from nowhere. If you are confused by this change, click the link. Stay tuned, more to come. Relationships are only one, though an important one, of the many factors described in Mind Prober.
And now, for a change of pace, my neighborhood at sunrise.